Who for ??

Gosh Im seriously worried about this. Sitting in bed chatting, doing nothing and not feeling like doing anything.

Lets see what I want to do first.

Gym - I cant go today, but at least I can join. Maybe I should do that. Maybe I should check Shridhar's mail.

FUCK. No mail. Maybe Ill go there at 5 anyway.

Hell I dont even know where to go.

Maybe if I just signed in ...

Hmm. Maybe I wont be able to go today after all. Maybe I should go to badminton tomorrow. At least I can ask Rahul that.

Blah. No Shridhar.

Hmm. Now to other stuff. I need to get going on this paper. Should I go home for that ?? I suppose not. Maybe office would be a better place ??

OK. Other than the paper, what else do I need to do soon ?
1. Registration changes.
2. Insurance
3. Lease

OK. Im off to get the registration form rite now.

Ah yes, I also need to look into this assignment thing. Maybe I should do that first. I can always do the registration tomorrow.

Ah I have to grade the old assignment as well.

When I go home I need to remember to read the text book for assignment too.

Heck, I waste so much time in these cricket discussions.

Oh God, Im going mad.

SHIT. Im damn worried. Here I am doing something so vague, something I dont quite like and is unsure to land me any place good. I have no job xp, am not qualified for anything, all my other friends have some xp. I am losing out on my skills too. Life's a mess.

Then there is always cricket.

Why is everyone else happy and Im sad ?? Why is everyone getting jobs, getting married/engaged, enjoying life and Im rusting here depressed ??

aaaaaaaaah gare !!!!!!!!!!!!

Heck I dont even feel like writing about cricket these days. I dont feel like I can add information. This is so pathetic.

I wish to be like Nirant, enjoy life, dance. Really what if I can get a job in Mumbai or something ?? Oo what about a job at Cricinfo or something ?? WIll I have the courage to take it ??

What the hell !! Let me at least try. Then we can see whether I have the courage or not. But before that I need to find inspiration to actually write again. Hmm.

Inspiration !! Inspiration !! Give me some inspiration.

Reminds me of the poem "Inspiration" I had written about a year ago. Ah, those were the days. Then there was Kassy in my life. Ah, well

Mental note: Inspire self to write. Next time I take a break, rather than chat, read.

Why is it that somehow I dont like Vici returning to the apartment ?? Because I will need to get up and start making dinner and stuff ??

SHIT. Ive even forgotten integration and probability and stuff.

Dont even feel like going to play badminton today !!