02/22
Once again, despite getting up on time I mess up laze around and am unable to go to class on time. But that is OK, what is not OK is that I spend another hour and half fooling around on the internet. At that time I dont think it is a problem because I think I have it covered but then it turns out it is. Although meeting with Sriram goes quite good I realize I have to buck up on work. Pizza party is fine but again Im a bit hurt by the way my friends treat me - not waiting at the party and all that - but Im OK with that now - I realize they have their engagements and all. But whatever. What freaks me out is that even after this I fool around on the net resulting in delay on my work of grading. Career fair seminar is TP, nothing much. But TA work really gets at me. I mean I know Im doing only what is bare necessary and I have to do this much but wha tthe hell it is such pathetic work. And I dont even do a good job of it. Again like stat HW I need to get part of this done before hand and only part on the last day. And then I can perhaps do a better job of it too. Not grade for the sake of grading. And this horrid schedule is really getting at me. I mean I have to go so early Im unable to be fully ready and am really exhausted by the time evening comes along. this resulted me in wasting an hour and delay to gym today. Really really pathetic. But I dunno what I can do. I do need to do something about my weight though and I have decided to drastically cut down on dinner.

Again at home Im pretty pissed off with the attitude of Vici and Rahul. I mean I know I have some weaknesses but they really get at me. Fucking frustrating.